I just wrapped up three weeks of work travel. Rarely do I have travel aligned so closely together and spend such a large stretch away from home. It just happened that way and I thought I would suck it up and do what needed to be done. Since I have started my blog, many people have said you really can have it all: a career and a family. One of the things I promised about my blog is that I would be honest.
Today did not feel like one of those days where you can have both.
One of the things I do when I am not traveling is homework with my son. Studying for a test with him can test your patience. All kids are different, but I can tell that my son will need to work hard for every single grade he gets. He will need to study and re-study and there is no guarantee he will “ace” that test. I email with his teacher and give her a heads up when I am traveling. We studied on the weekend to try and get him ready. We can do this, right? Then reality set in. In the three weeks I was gone, my son got three tests back all below the grade of 70. Since the school year started he has not got a lower mark than 85. Here comes the guilt, buckle in, it’s going to be a good ole dunk of drowning guilt water.
In the meantime, at work, it was a fantastic day. A major milestone in a yearlong project was publicly announced. It was a moment to look back and reflect, and to note what an impact we were making as a team.
How could this all be in the same day? Oh the highs and the lows, it was a crash back to reality as soon as I landed home.
I wrote about this tonight because although I do believe that women really can have it all, I wanted to share with you that today was one of the days that it sure as hell did not feel that way. I need to remember that this is only one day and there are 364 other days in a year. There will not be another time this year that my travel will keep me away from home for that length of time. I need to put it into perspective. Tonight though, the guilt is killing me.
It’s my job as his mom to help him work hard for those grades. He depends on me and I can’t help but feel I let him down. So tomorrow, we get back on the horse. We try a little harder, work a little smarter and remember the lesson of the day. I still believe women can have it all, but I don’t walk around with rose-tinted glasses. There are good days, and there are bad days, but the sun will come out tomorrow and we get to stretch our wings and make honey again… aren’t we blessed?
Buzz Worthy Lesson of the Day:
Don’t let one bad day get you down, the sun will come out tomorrow